A healing I had renews confidence

 

I’m rejoicing because of a healing I just had.

 

I was feeling quite down and blue.  I kept hearing thoughts like, what are you doing? Are you really valuable and useful?  Why don’t you have any confidence?

 

I wrote a list about why I am valuable and useful.  Although I learned more about myself, I still couldn’t quite shake the blues.

 

I reached out to some folks for answers.  One of those people is my husband.  He boiled it down to one question.  To which the response was “because God is calling you to”.  That’s it.  No human reason, justification, personality or any other such thing.  Simply you are doing what you are doing because God is calling you to.

 

I went to the Christian Science church service this evening, still not feeling quite right.

 

I was serving as an usher so I decided I would pray for others and the church service while I waited for people to arrive.

 

Taking my mind off these challenges, and myself, helped and made me feel a lot lighter.

 

There were many good ideas shared during the service, and I enjoyed listening to them.  Occasionally an “angel message” would come to my thought “God is calling you to” as a response to my inner longing.  There were wonderful testimonies given (folks stand up and give gratitude for spiritual growth and healings), and by the conclusion of the service I was feeling happy, light and free.  I was able to chat freely with fellow church attendees.

 

So, in conclusion, the helpful ideas that came to me were these:

 

  • God is calling me to do what I am doing.
  • Therefore, it is not me doing it, I am just expressing and glorifying God.
  • I have to be good at things I do because I am expressing Him.  I have to be a good cook, good wife, good practitioner, etc because He is good and I am expressing/reflecting Him (not myself).

 

This gave me a lot more confidence and clarity, and I am going forth rejoicing!!

 

National Bullying Prevention Awareness Week

This week is National Bullying Prevention Awareness Week in the United States.  At our Christian Science Reading Room, in downtown Bend, we have a poster for members of the community to sign up to pray about this issue.  The statistics say that 160,000 kids stay home from school because of bullying, and that it has led to suicide (www.pacer.org).

 

This got me thinking that there really can’t be any victims in God’s kingdom.  God’s children are not and cannot be controlled by anything but Good, divine Love.  When we see and recognize God as the source and creator of all, we see that creation can only be good and reflects and possesses God’s divine nature.

 

I listened to a Sentinel Radio program (February 2010) where a boy in England applied the Truth found in the Bible and Christian Science to a bullying situation at school.  A boy was bullying him, quite aggressively, each day in class.  At first he didn’t know what to do about the situation, but after talking with his parents they decided to pray to love this boy and see his true spiritual nature.  The boy telling the story said he knew this other boy had to be a child of God, too, so he tried to look for qualities the boy expressed, which had their source in God.  He started noticing qualities this boy exhibited in different settings such as intelligence or his sense of style.  Soon this boy’s thought was transformed to see that this “bully” really was a child of God and had wonderful qualities and talents that he expressed.  Well, the whole situation was transformed in about a week and they became friends.  I love this testimony of healing, which was given so eloquently by this child.  A real spiritual transformation took place in him as he replaced the “counterfeit” view with the spiritual view and understanding of who God is and the spiritual nature of His creation.

 

All of God’s ideas, including children, reflect God’s qualities; these qualities are love, compassion, gentleness, unselfishness, confidence, and righteousness.  Mary Baker Eddy, the discoverer and founder of Christian Science, has this definition for “children” in her book, Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures: “CHILDREN. The spiritual thoughts and representatives of Life, Truth, and Love” (p. 582).  There certainly isn’t anything sinful in that definition!

 

So how can anything unlike God be a part of His creation?  It can’t!

 

So, what is this appearance?  Simply an “aggressive mental suggestion” that God’s spiritual, perfect man is not all there is, and that we are not all protected by God’s powerful Love.  This is false!  And as we bring about awareness, shine a light on this subject together, we can join hands and take a stand that goodness, harmony and brotherly love are natural and normal.  Unselfishness is what we are really about.  And we are humble and meek allowing room for others to grow.

 

These “bullies” have every right to know that they are children of God, too.  They don’t need to feel insecure or unclear about their identity.  Each of us has a perfect identity from God full of all the intelligence, talents, and qualities that we need.  We are absolutely adequate and have infinite capabilities from our Creator.  And we fit in perfectly with God’s creation.  There is enough room for all of us!

 

As adults we have to exemplify this ourselves.  We certainly can’t “bully” each other’s politics or businesses or families, and then expect kids to get along well at school.  We are included in this harmonious atmosphere that we want to see kids embodying.  I was at a kid’s soccer game recently and was surprised to hear the parents misconstruing the actions of other parents on opposing teams, and parents not respecting or being courteous to one another.  What value system and example do we set forth for our children?  Mrs. Eddy states in the book previously mentioned, “Clad in the panoply of Love, human hatred cannot reach you” (p. 571).  Panoply is “a complete suit of armor” (dictionary.com).  We are wrapped up in the armor of Love when we see and know only Love is going on, when we see the spiritual, perfect view of man that God created, and when we know how loved and cherished we are by divine Love, our Father-Mother.  Then human hatred doesn’t reach us; it cannot reach us!  This might be hatred that is targeted at us, or the temptation to hate someone else.  We can be totally shielded and protected by dwelling in the atmosphere (in thought) of Love.  Perhaps this is why Jesus said,

 

“Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven:” (KJV, Matt 5:44,45).

 

The Message says, “Live out your God-created identity. Live generously and graciously toward others, the way God lives toward you” (Matt 5:48).

 

We can see and know each person’s identity as a spiritual child without any aggressive or insecure blemish in him or her.  And we can hold to who we are, as a child of God, totally protected and safe from any “bully”.

 

If you like the testimony about the boy shared above, there are many more at your local Christian Science Reading Room published in the Sentinel and on the Sentinel Radio program, on kids praying about bullying and finding resolutions.

 

Loving Ourselves

I read an interesting article the other day.  It pointed out to love ourselves first, and then we will have the ability to love our neighbor as ourselves.[i] I feel this point is important when understood in a spiritual perspective.

If I see myself as the spiritual idea that God created – beautiful, useful, intelligent, filled with right ideas, creative, and shining – then I express that, and I’m able to see others that way.

On the contrary, if I’m not seeing myself spiritually, then I’m probably not going to see others spiritually as well.  If I only love myself a little bit or some of the time, than I’m only going to love my neighbor a little bit or some of the time.  We can see ourselves as the spiritual perfect man or woman that God created, and in that way we can be uplifted and help uplift others.

When we love ourselves as God’s child then we naturally bless and include others.  We radiate God’s light.  We see ourselves through the lens of Love, and we are able to see others in the same way.  Giving becomes easier.  We are more productive and appreciative.  We feel more spontaneity, energy and enthusiasm.

Negative thoughts about yourself are draining.  They take away our strength and lead to discouragement.  They may be regret, inadequacy, unworthiness, fear of failure, or lack of confidence.  On the other hand they may be self-righteousness or self-justification.  The type of attitude that says, “I don’t care what anyone else feels; I’m going to do it anyway”; Or it may be criticizing others so that we feel better.  This isn’t loving ourselves as God made us either.

We are each the beloved child of God.  God knows us as spiritual and perfect, eternally abiding in His kingdom.  “In Him we live and move and have our being”.[ii] Therefore we can never be apart from God or leave His side.  No mistake or accident from the past can taint us today.  We are “new-born”[iii] each day, and we can always “put on the new man”[iv].

I had the privilege of attending a Christian marriage seminar shortly after I was married.  Wonderful ideas were shared including this one that I like: we are 100% responsible for how we feel.  This takes pressure off your spouse or anyone else to be the one to please or make you happy.  And it takes pressure off of you to look for someone to make you feel good.

When we are responsible for how we feel, we are much nicer to be around and easier to get along with.  We don’t have to look to someone else for approval or satisfaction; we can look to God to know we are taking the right step and walking the right way.  We can check with God before we do or say anything.  And we know we are already loved.  I like revising the well-known Bible statement that says, “We love him, because he first loved us”[v] to say ‘we love ourselves, because God first loved us’.

Loving yourself is being obedient to God.  God made you and created you.  Loving yourself is acknowledging God’s wonderful creation.   It isn’t selfish at all.  And we are more valuable to Him when we see who we are as He/She created us to be – perfect and eternal in His/Her own spiritual image and likeness.

So let’s love ourselves today, and in that way we will truly be able to love others.


[i] Christian Science Sentinel, “A Promise of Progress”, T. Michael Fish, July 5, 2010

[ii] Holy Bible, King James Version, Acts 17:28

[iii] Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures, Mary Baker Eddy, p. 35

[iv] Holy Bible, King James Version, Eph 4:24, Col 3:10

[v] Holy Bible, King James Version, I John 4:19